In mourning...

Ok so no one died or anything... just in mourning of my lost "life"...
This semester/year is going to be incredible busy with school and it just never seems that I am able to do the things I want to do... like going to my cousin's bridal shower (and I am a bridesmaid), visiting my friends and family who don't live within driving distance (in Iowa and DC and CA), live on my own (just moved back in with my parents because of financial reasons)...

But my actual life must go on... the life dictated by school deadlines and class schedules...

::sigh::

Interesting thing a friend sent me...

http://christisdeeperstill.blogspot.com/2008/06/emotional-blackmail-at-church.html

'Emotional blackmail happens when a person equates his or her emotional pain with another person’s failure to love. They aren’t the same. A person may love well and the beloved still feel hurt, and use the hurt to blackmail the lover into admitting guilt he or she does not have. Emotional blackmail says, 'If I feel hurt by you, you are guilty.' There is no defense. The hurt person has become God. His emotion has become judge and jury. Truth does not matter. All that matters is the sovereign suffering of the aggrieved. It is above question. This emotional device is a great evil. I have seen it often in my three decades of ministry and I am eager to defend people who are being wrongly indicted by it.

In an age when personal unhappiness is always someone else's fault, some people walk into church looking for a scapegoat. The pastor is easy prey. Their angry perception of him is, as Dr. Piper suggests, logically confused but psychologically compelling within their own thought-world, which they readily spread to other people.' -Ray Ortlund Jr.